Reflection on self-doubt: Does help signify a weakness?
Growing up in a camouflaged environment, believing I had to go through it by myself , shaped my belief that I have to finish things without any help from others to prove that I can, even if it means facing consequences that are yet to be certain. I hypnotised myself, “no help, no problem.” At some points, I begin to regard help as a form of weakness, which I do not want to expose myself to people. Weakness is the darkest side of someone’s self that should only be seen by the closest peer and family. I keep hiding and denying the help I have been receiving, and persistently telling myself that “I do not need help, and I should not receive one.” On the contrary, I believe I have to be the one who offers help. It is okay for others to seek help, and it is partly my obligation to offer one. I should be the one who offers the energy to ensure people are doing great and get the things they want. But I should not still receive help. Help usually comes when you are in trouble, or ...
