Hilang

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Tiba lah saya pada sebuah titik
Titik di mana saya merasa hilang
Hilang arah, hilang tujuan

Semua skema, direksi, perkiraan yang saya sudah persiapkan
Lenyap begitu saja

Kaki terdiam
Mata menatap kosong
Berkali-kali kepala ini berputar
Ke kanan, ke kiri

Saya di mana?
Mengapa saya di sini?
Saya harus pergi ke mana?

Tak ada sedikitpun jejak yang bisa saya ikuti
Tak ada sedikitpun petunjuk untuk keluar yang saya ingat
Saya sudah hilang

Apakah orang lain sadar saya menghilang?

Tolong saya!
Saya terjebak dalam dunia ini
Dunia yang saya kira adalah kampung halaman saya

Tolong!!

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